Simply Life

Today was for my dad, I mean me. I went over to spend it with him... Use to be I spent alot more time at my parents because they "needed" me, at least I thought they did. And I suppose it is true, my mom was very ill and required total care. And I wanted to be there for her and my dad. But what I am realizing now it is was me who really benefited, and still am. She is gone, now since March 10th. I miss her, so much. I remember wondering, ashamedly on some days, will I miss her any more than the parts of her that had already been stripped from her. Oh yes, yes, yes...I miss holding her hand. I miss lying next to her with my arm across her. I even miss her looking at me and wondering quietly how I fit into her world. I miss her laughing at my dad and him singing to her. No more words today...